[Warning: This post may be a trigger for those who suffered from a miscarriage or the loss of a child]
“We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before.”
Around 11:00 PM on Sept. 30, Chrissy Teigen shared the devastating news that she had delivered and lost her baby in a heartbreaking Instagram post. She included a series of photos of herself and John in the hospital over the past few days, including one of them holding their tiny baby before having to say goodbye.
Earlier in September, Chrissy updated her fans, sharing that she had been placed on strict bed rest and that she was around 20 weeks along (halfway through her pregnancy). She had been experiencing bleeding due to a “weak placenta” and was told to stay in bed at all times except to use the bathroom or take a bath (not a shower).
The weak placenta wasn’t a huge surprise to Chrissy because she had similar issues when she was pregnant with Luna and Miles, both of whom had to be delivered early to avoid complications. However, she was optimistic because she said the baby was a little wiggle worm and was really strong and she was feeling great despite everything going on.
Then, on Sept. 28, Chrissy shared that she was in the hospital after the bleeding went from concerning to “scary.” At that point, she was having blood transfusions, but, in a light-hearted Instagram post, she assured fans that the treatment “sounds more dramatic than it is” and that all was well.
But the bleeding wouldn’t stop, the transfusions weren’t helping, and the baby was in distress. Chrissy had to go through labor, complete with an epidural, and deliver her baby, who they called Jack.
Her heartbreaking Instagram caption read,
“We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before. We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough.
“We never decide on our babies’ names until the last possible moment after they’re born, just before we leave the hospital. But we, for some reason, had started to call this little guy in my belly Jack. So he will always be Jack to us. Jack worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever.
“To our Jack – I’m so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn’t give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you.
“Thank you to everyone who has been sending us positive energy, thoughts and prayers. We feel all of your love and truly appreciate you.
“We are so grateful for the life we have, for our wonderful babies Luna and Miles, for all the amazing things we’ve been able to experience. But every day can’t be full of sunshine. On this darkest of days, we will grieve, we will cry our eyes out. But we will hug and love each other harder and get through it.”
About an hour later she tweeted,
“Driving home from the hospital with no baby. How can this be real.”
As someone who was wheeled out of the hospital with empty arms, I can truly feel her pain. But, I got to return to see mine thriving in the NICU. Chrissy has nothing to return to but her own bed, where she laid for weeks just trying to keep her baby safe.
Losing a child at any age is a parent’s worst nightmare. The devastation she must be experiencing is unimaginable.
We can only hope Chrissy and John are able to find some comfort when they wrap their arms around Luna and Miles, and that the family is given the privacy they deserve to mourn and heal from this tragic loss.
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Aside from being a writer, Ashley is a mom of two girls and a wife to a passionate public school administrator. When she does have free time (cue laughter from working moms everywhere) she loves going to hot yoga classes, watching anything on Netflix that isn’t a cartoon, and weaving her way through every aisle of Target while listening to one of her favorite podcasts.