This article contains spoilers. You’ve been warned.

After a successful five-year run, Jane the Virgin finally came to a long-anticipated end.

At its height, Jane the Virgin was a near-perfect TV show. It managed to be funny, heart-warming, and cheesy all at the same time. It took a ridiculous premise and turned it into something so much bigger.

And when the show wasn’t being a straight-up telenovela, it was tackling serious issues like immigration, Trump, and the social construct of virginity — many topics that other shows shied away from.

But the fifth and final season was a huge turning point for the series. It was mediocre at its best.

The writers took a wonderful show and cheapened it with redundant storylines and extraneous plots.

Every episode felt like a chore to watch but I plugged on out of loyalty. I used to watch with my mother and, although she gave up midway through the season, I felt an obligation to see this thing through.

But when it came to the series finale, I just couldn’t bring myself to watch it.

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Jane the Virgin / Facebook

I ended up reading a few recaps online and checked out reactions to the finale on Twitter. I thought it would inspire me to watch it. It did not.

According to the recaps, the finale featured Jane and Rafael’s wedding and also revealed the narrator’s identity (but we’ll get to that later).

Jane ending up with Rafael seemed like a given, even from season one. He was the non-consensual father to her child, after all. It felt like fate.

I was Team Rafael once upon a time. Sure he had a playboy past, but he was caring and charming. And they were just so damn cute together.

And Michael? I couldn’t understand how Jane and Michael even started dating in the first place. He just seemed so vanilla.

But by the time of their wedding, Michael had more than proven himself. I was Team Michael all the way.

Of course, we all know how that ended. So I was trying, like the rest of Team Michael, to move on and get on board with Rafael. But then — could it be? — Michael was back!

It was all a tease, though. Michael was only a tool for the writers to get closure, to prove that Jane and Michael’s love story was truly over. As a viewer, however, it was a knife in the heart. It felt cruel to see this once wonderful man turned into a shell of himself.

So to watch Jane and Rafael walk down the aisle together was too much to think about. By the end, their relationship felt boring and passionless. It felt as though they were only with each other because they had a kid together. Would they have ended up together otherwise? Both had truly changed so much in five years and their union no longer felt joyous.

As if that wasn’t enough, there was the big reveal of the narrator’s identity. It turned out that Jane’s son Mateo was narrating the whole show — which was actually a telenovela based on the book Jane had written.

It’s a decision that the creator Jennie Snyder Urman had made at the start. It was all meant to be very tongue-in-cheek.

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Jane the Virgin / Facebook

But as someone who firmly believed in the grandfather-was-the-narrator theory, it was hard for me to wrap my head around. Jennie’s explanation behind the decision certainly made sense. It wasn’t some last-minute twist she hadn’t fully thought out (looking at you, Gossip Girl).

Yet it felt wrong. It was almost too cheesy, even for a show that was built on cheese.

Of course, as I said earlier, all of these reactions are merely based on what I’ve read online — I haven’t actually watched the episode for myself.

And perhaps if I did, I would feel more satisfied with the ending. But based on what I know, I just can’t bring myself to do it.

I’m trying hard to maintain the happy memories I have of Jane the Virgin in my head — the ones of the crazy fantasy sequences and the ones of Jane and Rafael’s first kiss. And somehow, if I never watch the finale, I can pretend like the show didn’t go out like this. That it didn’t go out with a whimper of a season.

I hope one day I’ll be ready rewatch from season one and enjoy all those moments all over again. I’ll just make sure to stop once I finish season four!

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