Kesha on Her Eating Disorder: “I’m Not Ashamed Anymore”

Over the last year or so, pop star Kesha has been to hell and back. After battling with eating disorders, a very public lawsuit with Dr. Luke and more, the singer is finally feeling stronger than ever.

Kesha — who entered rehab last year for eating disorders and body dysmorphia — said the disease almost killed her. Speaking at SXSW, she explained,

“If you feel a certain way about yourself, your body — it can kill you. I almost died. I came closer than I ever knew. By the time I entered rehab, they were surprised I hadn’t had a stroke — because I hadn’t consumed enough. I’m not ashamed anymore. It’s emotional because it’s a deep-rooted disease. It can really affect your self-worth.”

Kesha said she took to heart all the online haters and let them affect her deeply.

“I was making trolls, I was making bullies, I was making people I had never met before — who were projecting their insecurities on me, on the internet — I was making them the truth, the higher power.”

She’s also previously asserted that Dr. Luke — who she’s currently suing — emotionally, verbally and sexually abused her to the point of self-harm, which included taking drastic action to slim down.

Dr. Luke is a music producer whose credits include working with Pink, Katy Perry, and Miley Cyrus. Because of Kesha’s suit against the producer as well as his countersuit against her, Kesha is prohibited from recording new music for a new label.

Despite all that’s going on in her life, Kesha is determined not to let any of it get her down.

“I’m not gonna let hate win. I’m gonna win, and I’m gonna do it, and I’m going to spread love for the rest of my life. My goal is to be remembered for being a positive human being that did positive things to other people.”

Lena Finkel
Lena Finkel is the Editor and Founder of Femestella. Prior to starting Femestella, she worked at People, InStyle, Tiger Beat, and Sesame Workshop (aka Sesame Street). She loves all things Real Housewives and Vanderpump Rules. When she's not busy binge-watching TV, you can find her hanging out with her tuxedo cat Tom.